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through this isolation i have brought upon myself i have found nothing,
i cannot tell you exactly what i have wanted to achieve through being anti social, perhaps i'm not even being anti social it's just that there is nothing to do anymore, and that all that is focused on in my brain is of past occurances from better times that i pray i am still capable of living.

or maybe through so many fond memories of the past i have just grown higher expectations of everything and everyone around me and nothing ever seems to replenish this longing hunger for something bigger; a bigger picture.

everything's a faise and when nothing brings you satisfaction anymore you feel as though life is no longer worth living, what your going through to get through it, with or without necessary pleasures to get you to the end.