melbourne,

'yeah ill be back with my .44 caliber, lookin for yo sluts'
'twenty six'
'yeah i could get any drugs you want.. in adelaide'
'fuck all da mothafucken cops'
'sit on my face'
'he's probably got a wife and two kids'
'wait.. does santa claus really have a house?!..'
'milk bar'
'yeah i just shat on that window over there, want to go take a photo??'
'have a nice life then'
'whippywhipwhippppppped'
'no you come up here'

yoda bongs, monster cones, shit vodka, julie bonus, 'free' trams, oreo's for breakfast, dangerfield, brunswick st, 'rock off', creepy taxi driver, cute cats, d.i.y indian, sleeping in/outside naps.

on the hole, melbourne was good.

mmm beach,

there is nothing more beautiful.

i need a boy

that will keep me occupied, so i won't care, so i don't need to care.
we could make plans all the time and spend every waking moment, together.
will contain the interest in me that i have have been longing for such time.
i am sick of this dry feeling in my throat that makes me feel like nobody can love me again, because they haven't.

and i would stay commited forever.

"paranormal activity"

is very close to the scariest movie i have seen yet.

i had to research the special effects used throughout the movie to make myself believe that it is actually not real (if anyone know's me they know how gullable i can be easily led, easily fooled) didn't find much information at all, really, but watched a few interviews with the actors and director. it is amazing some of the effects used in hollywood today, truely impressive to say the least.

my stomach churned throughout the movie and was still knotted for hours afterwards.

i can safely say that i wont be able to sleep properly again for some time!

"Everybody is going to hurt you, you just have to find the ones worth suffering for"

- Bob Marley

freedom

the next sixteen days are going to be so chilled,
i have absolutely nothing to do except casually work and wait for my letter to arrive stating whether im going to do my cert iv next year or not.

besides that i have a few things i'd like to see get done,

-buying christmas presents for everyone i think needs one,
whilst trying to save for melbourne.
-look for a new job, maybe.
-finish painting the canvases for my room.
-draw my tattoo's up.
-figure out what i want for next year.
-clean out my room and wardrobe.

hmmm.

i don't think i will ever understand again,

i love the way you made me feel yesterday, and the day before.

you made me feel beautiful everytime i awoke, something i don't think i've ever felt like before. you snuck up behind me in the mirror and kissed me, looking in the mirror.i could see the desire, the dreams in your eyes. you drove with the rear vision mirror at me and would notice my every expression. you held my hand at the shopping centre and wouldn't let me go.

i just wished you would show more interest, i want to know about you and i want you to know about me.

counting down the days!

There are 69 days until i am eighteeeen, finally!

19 days until i go to melbourne, 23 until i see my bestfriend.

29 days until the new year, wow i can't believe it!

oh and this has made my day, keeping me happy.

"there's this girl i talk to everyday, i might just be crushing on".

weweowoweoewoweow.