Friday, September 25, 2009

exausted~

im trying to mesure out yesterday's pro's and cons.
i hate breaking promises i make to myself.

i wish i was older and more wise, so i wouldn't do this to myself.
bipolar attacks recently have only been happening when im by myself or i will just keep how i am feeling and nicely cover up how i truely feel.

i know you don't read blogs so im going to say how i feel here because i have nowhere else to express this feeling, this time it's not going into my art.

in a short time we have become what i believe is best friends. until what happened last night, i dont want what happened to happen anymore, i do in short term but i just am not ready for what you seem to want. you seemed to express that you understood me so so much but then after i was upset and you had cheered me up, you just commited what had just made me feel uncomfortable, again. how confusing.

im not only angry at myself anymore, im also a little angry at you.

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