streets alive.

is it possible i have to much feeling and it clashes with not having enough heart, enough commitment to pursue? i scare myself more than anything.

another weekend in syndey,
i don't know what it is that makes me so happy when im there.
i'm really excited about moving there next year, maybe with my bestfriend.

anyway, my weekend started off basically around 330 when i set off driving to wyong after i missed getting a lift with the boys because i was too fussy about what i was wearing (although i ended up looking/feeling like shit eitherway)

chased the train, nose to nose all the way to sydney trying to get it but no, ended up taking four hours to get to manning bar, then being sober and going in by myself.

saw my favorite band but didn't really enjoy it as much as i thought i could, being in stupid clothing e.g heels (last time i do that), i guess i just fogot what it was like going to an massive AA show, it's been a while.

negatives:
-felt discusting/not pretty/ratty pretty much the entire time.
-HVH ARE NOT TOURING FOR A FEW MONTH BECAUSE THEY ARE RECORDING THEIR NEW FULL LENGTH.
-too much travel and time wasted.
-spent pretty much all my money made last week.
-didnt exactly enjoy the show.

positives:
-saw my favorite band.
-sydney makes me happy.
-lots of hours up for my p's.
-found out dre doesn't dislike me, it was my paranoia.
-met new people.



observation: need to need less, need to want less, need to feel less.